Man has the want of his will, and the momentary want of his desire. Ultimately he wants the right thing, the good thing, our will. But in the moment of temptation we have a rush of desire that is our immediate want. For will to overcome desire we must merge the two. To strengthen our will so much that the will and the desire are one in the same.

The new year has been fabulous.
I can never ask for a greater start to it. It's an irony that it is always the various minor events that make everything so bizarrely beautiful.
Her return have set off a ripple of emotions. A short trip for her, and by the time when i publish this entry, she would just have only a few days left.

"Some battles are not meant to be fought, because the casualties can be too great".
Well, i reckon i will win this war, for even if i am bruised and hurt, i always believe it is still worth it.

When we face a large frustration in a relationship, we don't know what to do to reduce frustration. We search for our memories for an old behaviour that has given us some relief in the past. With this remedy, we feel better temporarily but at the end of the day we did not achieve any positive desirable results which we wish for. With repeat cycles of behaving in such manner, we give up not wanting to seek for any other better quality behavior.

Everyone have their own quality life. There are two forms of reflection, a reflection which is who we want to be and someone who is capable of achieving great things. The other reflection is a satisfying form of us, choosing to believe that we are only that 'small' and we are not able to fulfill. When challenges occurs, one can choose to be the first form of reflection by rising to it and solve it or the latter form of reflection which we choose to remove everything out of our quality world. Replacing everything in our world beside our self. Replacement theory or a form of escape, that is what many people choose subconsciously.

Time apart helps me to sit back and understand the different elements in a healthy relationship. Often we love in the way which we believe it should be, however we tend not to realise that we should love in the way which others want it to be.
To love is a form of self sacrifice. Who am i to speak about love but i guess i have indeed learn how to love, to love you in the way which you would like.

One day when everything start slowing down, i want to be there standing by your side.

Not expecting, not imposing, no obligations. Just choosing what i believe in. You.

Starting from zilch with nothing to lose.